Gosh.... the new term has only like just begun, coming into start of Week 4 & I'm already wiped out, flatter than a piece of popiah skin (roti prata doesn't even make it, man)... I'm feeling like it's Week 7 of the last term & it's only Term 3... bah... this term is tightering its noose around my neck harder 'cos the kids Trinity Guildhall assessments are in 4 & 5 wks ago & I only see them for an hr & a half, once a wk (@_@) Some of 'em just doesn't have the urgency, my Primary 1s & I'm so stressed for 'em... make a mental note to self - No Primary 1 classes nxt yr!!!! Gimme the wailing, screaming, flopping, screeching, peeing & vomiting Nursery kids anytime 'cos after all tt, they settle better & no need to do any assessments whatsoever.
Frm now, gotta tighten my belt even more (like it's not tight enough already... I can't even breathe) new house coming soon in abt a yr & a half, so tt's gonna take a lot out of every single pocket of mine & hubby's... planning to take my driving licence nxt yr too & tt costs a bomb here in Sg... haiz... I need to get over my phobia of driving 1st before tt.. The drivers & roads of Sg are further stress-inducing to any normal person.. hah... wanna further my studies too but not too sure if my pockets can handle tt as well & whether I'd pass out frm all I have stacked on me at this moment.
Sometimes I just wanna fly high & say gd-bye or just dig myself deep into the ground... even sleep doesn't bring peace... no, my ever active mind doesn't shut down, it thinks even more thoughts - a million & one more thoughts so much so tt I take 2-3 hrs to fall asleep. Today after returning frm work (tired after doing classes on both Sat - 9am-10am, 10am-11am, 11.30am-1pm, 2.30pm-4pm, 4pm-4.30pm... Sun - 9am-10am, 10am-11am, 11.30am-1pm, 1pm-2.30pm, 3pm-4pm) I collasped onto my mum's bed like a log & my mum said I slept so straight, stiff & rigid like a beached whale... see? Even in sleep, I'm all stressed out... & they wonder why I'm so tired even tho' I sleep til late on my off-days. I need a hammer to knock me out cold so I can sleep better I guess. Anyone?
Frm now, gotta tighten my belt even more (like it's not tight enough already... I can't even breathe) new house coming soon in abt a yr & a half, so tt's gonna take a lot out of every single pocket of mine & hubby's... planning to take my driving licence nxt yr too & tt costs a bomb here in Sg... haiz... I need to get over my phobia of driving 1st before tt.. The drivers & roads of Sg are further stress-inducing to any normal person.. hah... wanna further my studies too but not too sure if my pockets can handle tt as well & whether I'd pass out frm all I have stacked on me at this moment.
Sometimes I just wanna fly high & say gd-bye or just dig myself deep into the ground... even sleep doesn't bring peace... no, my ever active mind doesn't shut down, it thinks even more thoughts - a million & one more thoughts so much so tt I take 2-3 hrs to fall asleep. Today after returning frm work (tired after doing classes on both Sat - 9am-10am, 10am-11am, 11.30am-1pm, 2.30pm-4pm, 4pm-4.30pm... Sun - 9am-10am, 10am-11am, 11.30am-1pm, 1pm-2.30pm, 3pm-4pm) I collasped onto my mum's bed like a log & my mum said I slept so straight, stiff & rigid like a beached whale... see? Even in sleep, I'm all stressed out... & they wonder why I'm so tired even tho' I sleep til late on my off-days. I need a hammer to knock me out cold so I can sleep better I guess. Anyone?
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